Monday, September 28, 2009

feeling a little sick inside

I have this friend, Laurie. I'd link to her, but unfortunately for all of you she's a private blogger.
Anyways. She posted today about loving and not judging & I've gotta be honest. I know it's a weakness of mine. A big one. An elephant sized one. Her post basically had the same effect as a slap across my face. It was like it said, "Yeah Heather. You idiot." And now I'm feeling all sick inside. That yucky -holy crap I just ruined something important to me- feeling. Because words are words and once they're out -they're out & there's no taking 'em back. But I wish there was. Instead of love, I handed out criticism. I probably lost a friend for it. My heart is crumbling.


Kristina P. said...

Was it a general post or a post about you?

I think that we all judge to an extent. I also don't love when people write passive agressive blog posts, rather than talk to the person they are writing about.

My heart goes out to you, Heather!

Laurie said...

Kristina, it was a post about ME, not Heather. It wasn't a passive-aggresive post; it was more of a I-just-learned-this-cool-thing-so-I'm-going-to-share post. Heather just feels that she needed the words as much as I did.

And Heather, talk to her. You didn't lose a friend. Trust me.

Jessica said...

I guess you know your own heart, but I never feel as though you judge people. And I think if the thought crossed your mind to do so you call yourself on it, your very kind Heather. Plus... you have to have a few flaws to work on or what is the purpose of being on earth?

Rachel Sue said...

I have been thinking a lot about this very same topic. And I have had a blog post floating around in my head for a long time.

I know I judge people. I am very aware of it. I try really, really hard to keep my mouth shut (fingers off the key board) but every once in a while things slip out.

Maybe one day I will be able to articulate well enough to share all of my thoughts. Until then, I will just leave garbled comments agreeing that it is something that I need to work on as well. . .

Laurie said...

If any of your readers are interested, most of my post was a straight quote from President Monson's talk in the Young Women broadcast from April's Conference... "May You Have Courage"

Pink Ink said...

Sometimes to get down to the meat of life, we have to be honest. And imperfect. And humble when we make a mistake.

It's hard. I've done this so many times it's not even funny. And the fallout. Oy.