I was mentally working on this little problem, and all the sudden I was thinking of the Amish people and their quilts. You've heard of their quilts right? They are so perfect, that they purposefully sew one flaw into each quilt. (I know this has something to do with their beliefs, I don't know what specifically.) Anyway, I couldn't get their quilts out of my head, and so I said a little prayer asking for me to be able to have a clear mind and to know what was going on with this diaper changing business.
Then I hear that voice that comes into my head sometimes say, "I'm going to tell you a story." And I imagined The Spirit pulling up a chair and sitting next to my bed.
There once was an angel, who had two wings that
could do everything that wings are meant to do.
One of her wings, however, had a piece missing.
It didn't affect the wing at all, other than
it made the wing a little less than perfect in appearance.
This bothered the angel. Everyday she'd spend time
trying to figure how she could fix it.
When she looked at herself the only thing she noticed
was that small missing piece.
She became so focused on what she thought was a flaw,
that she forgot she had two working wings.
She forgot she could fly.
When the story was over, the Amish quilt rolled out, once again, in my mind. And I was taught:
The flaw is the mortal experience. It is only a very small part of a much bigger picture. You are still a child, you are still learning. Things like this diaper changing problem are going to happen. It is nothing you are doing wrong, it is part of what he has to learn. Don't get so caught up in the imperfections, when you do, you rob yourself of your power.
I love being taught by the Spirit.
This morning though, when I went to change his diaper, I realized the fighting me business isn't coming to an end anytime soon. So I pinned him down with my legs, and worked as fast as possible. I think I'll begin doing some push-ups too, because this little boy is strong and fast and my job isn't going to be getting any easier.